ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK

TRIGGER WARNING  Details of an attack  ⚠️

Last night it happened again.  Why does this keep happening and why can’t I prevent it from happening again?

I was tired but relaxed, wearing my comfy pajamas and watching a kids show with my son.  Not stressed, not worried.  Nothing that would trigger such a terrifying attack.

As it forced its way through my body I could tell this was going to be a “big one” and I better act fast if I wanted to “fight it”.

Not wanting my son to watch me go through this, like he has so many times before, I grabbed my glass of water and went to my room.

I noticed on my dresser a sticky note that I had written on. It had one word.  BREATHE.  I sat on the bed, took a sip of my water, and closed my eyes.

Breathe in, breathe out. I was determined to try this time. Determined to apply the techniques I learned during my counseling sessions. Breathe in, breathe out.  I took another sip of water. I find that drinking water helps.  I continued to breathe slowly.

Both feet touching the floor I wiggled my toes.  Not sure why but I guess I was making sure I could feel them. My body was tingling and I couldn’t stop my legs from shaking. Why was my heart pounding in my ears? Was I dying? Why was I so cold.? Once again, I took another sip of water. I felt nauseous, was I getting sick? Was I going to pass out and was my son going to find me on the ground dead? Was I dreaming?  Why did I feel like I was having an out of body experience?

The thoughts kept running through my mind.  I’m scared and I want it to stop. I needed to get calm, I needed to breathe, and I needed more water.

Once again I sat with my eyes closed, trying to control my emotions and trying to breathe. Telling myself this will pass, I have been through this before, I am ok, I am ok, I am ok, and I drank more water.

Seems like hours have passed but it was only minutes.  Finally the shaking starts to slow down and my breathing is almost normal. Im not as cold and I’m not as scared. I made it. Im still here. I survived another another panic attack.

Even though this happened last night and I feel much better today, I’m worried about the next time it happens.  After every attack, I feel like this, to afraid to leave the house at least for a few days. I think about one of my favorite quotes:

“Nothing changes if nothing changes”

Author unknown

Do I stay inside to scared to leave or do I leave and not be scared? Today I choose to not be scared.

If you experience panic attacks or anxiety, always remember your not alone.  So many of us suffer from it and no matter how scared we are we always pull through.

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Just learning how to enjoy life with ocd. My mental health has been interfering with my daily activities for far to long and now that Im 50 its about time I start enjoying life and taking chances.

29 thoughts on “ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK

  1. Thank you for sharing your story and experiences. I totally get you, this is like reading about me. I’ve just been offered a new job and my initial reaction was panic that I would have a panic attack at work but I’m determined to not let it get in my way. We have got this!

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  2. Do u or have u ever just felt like ur inside went numb n then u feel like u can’t stay awake or get awake in morning I can’t really remember things it’s very scarey n I suffer a lot!!

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    1. I get so many different symptoms. After an attack it leaves me so tired I usually have to lay down for a couple hours. Sorry you experience these things as well.

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  3. I have had a few panic attacks.. one sent me to hospital, as I wasn’t sure it was not a heart attack. I am glad mine are very infrequent. This is a very helpful post for anyone with anxiety. Your description of your coping techniques will be useful for many. Great post.

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  4. This post is so real, my daughter suffers from panic attacks and it is a frightening experience. You just never know when they are going to strike.
    It is good that you feel able to share your experience.

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  5. Goodness. And you don’t know what even triggered this panic attack? That must be horrible. I’m so sorry to read this. My youngest used to get them a lot, but she seems to have them less now and I’m not sure why. I would dread that feeling of ‘no control’; it would be very scary. It sounds like you followed some very helpful steps to get yourself through this.

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  6. Thank you for sharing this. I don’t get panic attacks, but I do experience a lot of anxiety. I can relate to some of it. And I agree that no matter how scared or anxious we get, we always pull through.

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  7. Oh, that was so gripping. But you gonna be okay, dear. Panic attacks happen to lost of people these day. My mum, in her late fifties now, suffers from them to. They are worrying but a reality to live with. Thanks for sharing. 💖💖 i love your style of writing and I’ve followed you for future releases. Kindly follow back or check through my latest posts

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    1. Thank you so much for all the kind words. Sorry your mom always has to deal with panic attacks. I’m sure she appreciates how understanding you are when it comes to having one. I am heading over to your blog now. I look forward to reading and following your page. 😁

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  8. From time to time I had episodes of a panic attack and to say it’s terrifying won’t do much justice. The last time I had a serious panic attack I didn’t know what to do, this overwhelming sense of dread slowly creeps up and my mind descended into a spiral of unrelated thoughts The way you managed to articulate here really is something I can deeply relate to. Thanks for sharing and I hope you are doing fine now.

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    1. Oh yes they are definitely terrifying. I am so sorry you have experienced these horrible attacks. I do hope one day they become a thing of the past. Thank you for commenting. 🙂

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  9. I don’t experience panic attacks, and I am not sure about anxiety either (sometimes I feel like I might be, but I also feel like it might be me overthinking) Can’t imagine what it must feel like, I hope as you go forward things become better.

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    1. Panic and anxiety attacks can be absolutely horrible. Good news for me is that they don’t happen daily. I do hope to learn a better way to deal with it when it is happening. I am making progress. 😁

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