Re-post I wrote this a few months back but wanted to share it again.

I don’t understand it.  I don’t get it. I am so confused by it.  

How can I physically feel the symptoms? How can I physically feel the pain? It feels real. It is real. I’m not lying. I’m not trying to get attention.

I Am Not Imagining It

The un-easy feeling. I feel like something is going to happen. My stomach feels like it’s in knots, then the knots turn into a nauseous feeling. I’m scared, but of what? “They” say it’s my…..ANXIETY

The lump in my throat. I could feel it, every time I swallowed, I knew it was there. I didn’t want to tell my doctor because I worried he would say I was dying. After a couple months it went away and I was so relieved. But it came back. I finally got the courage to talk to my doctor, he said it was…..ANXIETY. I didn’t believe him. Further test and an x-ray proved he was right, there was no lump. There was nothing there, it was my ANXIETY.

The weird feelings in my head. I went to the emergency room several times. I thought I had a tumor, I thought I was going to die. I had test done, and then some more because once again I still didn’t believe the doctors. They were right, everything was fine, it was my…..ANXIETY

I’m so scared, not sure what I’m scared of, but yet I’m scared of everything…..ANXIETY

Every knew pain, every old pain, even every explained pain…..ANXIETY

I’m worried about going out, worried about staying home. What if I pass out? What if I get hurt? What if you get hurt?…..ANXIETY

I’m worried about being in a crowded room, a crowded store, even more worried about being all alone. Something bad might happen, what will I do? What will my family do?…..ANXIETY

Worried about my family, worried about my friends. Are they alright? Will they be alright? ANXIETY

I’m scared of this, and scared of that. I’m scared of things I have no control over. ANXIETY

I have seen a doctor, a therapist, and I’m in counseling. They all say the same thing ANXIETY

How can anxiety cause such real intense sensations? How do I make myself believe everything I’m feeling is anxiety when I am convinced its something else? How do I accept I have extremely bad anxiety and how do I learn to live and cope with it?

Try to replace a negative thought with a positive thought.

My answer to that is I’m going to take one day at a time. I’m going to continue with counseling, and continue to think positive. I have said this before and I am saying it again, I’m going to continue to live, laugh, and find my joy. It’s going to be hard, its going to take a lot of work, but I will try, and I will keep on trying, one day at a time.

If you know someone that has anxiety, DO NOT tell them to “get over it”. DO NOT tell them they are a hypochondriac, and DO NOT tell them they are crazy. I have heard these things before and it made me feel worse. It made me want to hide and made me feel alone.

If you know someone that has anxiety, be there for them. Let them know they can talk to you. Let them know you will help them through it. Have compassion, and let them know they are not alone.

If your suffering, speak up, reach out, and ask for help.

Have a wonderful week 🙂


21 thoughts on “Anxiety

  1. Our anxiety is connected to our nerve endings and the hormones in are bocy that were set up to help us. When they get out of whack they cause those physical symptoms and we do feel sick. The feelings are real. Anxiety is hard to live with. I have it. Many people do. Just keep working. You are one the right path.

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  2. I feel this so much. I have suffered and lived with anxiety my entire life too. Grew up in the same time where nobody discussed it or even thought it was real.
    I applaud your bravery to write about it in such a beautiful and authentic way. No sugar coating it…just raw emotion.


  3. I have IBS and anxiety makes the symptoms much worse—and may have even caused it in the first place. It amazes me (not in a good way) the havoc our mind can wreak upon our bodies. Over the years, I’ve learned how to control my reactions to things I can’t control…most of the time.
    I wish you the best of luck bringing your anxiety under control so you can live a more satisfying life. ❤️

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    • Learning how to control my reaction especially when I first feel it coming on probably would help me from going into a huge panic attack. But learning how to do that is what I’m having a difficult time doing. Hopefully one day I will get there. Thank you for your awesome comment. Wishing you the best. 😁😁

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