Mental Health

I have had ocd since I was around 13, I am now 51. The doctor actually diagnosed me with severe ocd. Severe sounds so severe. But it doesn’t stop there, I also have horrible panic attacks and anxiety. Living with these mental illnesses is not easy.

My mind is never quiet. It is always thinking, worrying, and stressing. The ocd thoughts are constantly terrorizing my mind. All the “what if’s” that float threw my brain can make life difficult. If I am not physically exhausted then I am mentally.

When I was in my 40s, and tired of the many years of suffering with this horrible illness, I finally decided to get professional help. Along with getting help, I also decided to do my own research. I wanted to learn as much as I could about the illnesses that made my life difficult.

For years now I have been researching more and more about mental illnesses. I read, read, and read, hoping to learn whatever I can to educate myself, in hopes that I can apply what I have learned so I can lead a happier, healthier life.

When I sit and think about where I am now compared to a few years ago, I see how far I have come. I have actually come a long way. Sometimes its easy to forget how far I have come because I do still suffer and I do still have alot of bad days. Those bad days have a way of making me forget about my progress.

I forget about the obstacles I have overcome.  I forget about the goals and the victories that I have successfully made. It’s easy to forget when you are still suffering. But…..

This month I am taking the time to remember.  I am reminding myself how much I have accomplished. I am remembering the goals and victories I have reached and am continuing to reach. I am able to do things today that I wasn’t able to do a year ago. Wow, just saying that makes me smile and gives me hope.

I have hope. I have hope that my life will continue to improve. I have hope that I will continue to learn how to live a happier life, even while still suffering with mental illnesses. Hope that one day I will be able to get through my day without “giving in” to my ocd. I have hope that one day I will be able to say I have ocd, not severe ocd. I have hope that everything will be okay, and hope that I will be okay.

May is mental health awareness month. Let’s continue to bring awareness on mental health issues.  Let’s continue to be there and help others that might be suffering alone.  We need to not be embarrassed or scared to admit we have a mental illness. Together we can find hope, hope for a better tomorrow, and hope for a happier life.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental illness, please Reach Out,Speak Up, And Ask For Help.  Nobody should go through it alone.

Our Mental Health Matters

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Just learning how to enjoy life with ocd. My mental health has been interfering with my daily activities for far to long and now that Im 50 its about time I start enjoying life and taking chances.

42 thoughts on “Mental Health

  1. Really great reminder to all of us to have hope! I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression as a teenager and it’s been a tough journey but I am so proud of myself for coming as far as I have. It really is a big deal to not let your mental illness consume you. Even the small victories are important because they lead us to the right path.

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      1. It took a while to realise how far I’ve come because it was all small victories but when I thought about it I was amazed and proud. Thanks so much and love yours too! πŸ˜„

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  2. Great attitude, and positive affirmations! Yes, let’s do our best in whatever we are facing. Nothing can beat us. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. πŸ’šπŸ™ŒπŸ»

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  3. Baby steps in all we do, all levels and all people I tell my kids. just takes those baby steps and you will accomplish so much. No shame in being who we are. Your honesty will help so many and I think you are doing amazing, just having the strength to share something personal is something big and something to be very proud of. The more people that speak up about mental health the less it will be looked upon as something ugly to be hidden. Thank you for that.

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  4. Wow what an amazing journey you’ve been on! Having to deal with anxiety and panic attacks is just so hard let alone living with OCD. You’re an inspiration to others, not only those also struggling, but just to people who may have lost some direction or hope. I didn’t even realise I suffered with anxiety or panic attacks until I got back from 6 and a half weeks in a psychiatric hospital. I was dealing with ptsd, that was tough enough, but then the anxiety started, just being back in day to day life was so scary!
    Step by step it gets less and kind of easier I suppose. Keep going πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ˜Š

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    1. Thank you Simon 😊 I was over checking out your blog yesterday and I think its great that you are writing and spreading awareness on mental illness. I really enjoyed reading your posts and am excited to read more from you. 😁

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  5. It’s uncommon to hear someone diagnosed with OCD. I don’t need to tell you how serious the disease is. I’ve lost track of how many times someone has said to me, “oh, I have OCD. That’s just my OCD.” Those people will never understand what its really like to have the disease. You’ve done a fantastic job of living with OCD. God Bless 😊

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  6. Thank you so much for posting this. I also struggle with OCD, and it’s sometimes hard to remember how far I’ve come in the face of current struggles, but that’s just what I have to doβ€” remember. Congratulations to you on how far you have come. I have more than hope for you. I have faith.

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  7. Thank you for sharing and your honesty. My primary diagnosis is bipolar but I have developed a case of acute anxiety that looks a lot like OCD – the checking and so on. I believe you are very strong to be writing so candidly about OCD. For those of us who have a glimpse into the condition, it sounds as if you are doing great to remember all the progress you have made. We can all use that as a reminder no matter what the diagnosis is. I agree with the person who said baby steps make all the difference.

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    1. I just love comments like yours. Makes any doubts that I have about opening up about ocd just dissappear. And yes we all need that reminder that even if we see just a little bit of progress, it’s still progress 😁

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  8. This world is an open invitation to anxiety and panic attacks and depression. I, too, do battle, but thank you for offering up some much-needed HOPE! And as my Meditation Leader reminds me: Breath in, 1-2-3; Breath out, 1-2-3
    Good days vastly outnumber the bad days.

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