UNCERTAINTY/OCD

Everyday starts the same. I tell myself today is the day I stop giving into the thoughts in my head, today I will not repeat and do things over and over. Sounds simple, sounds easy enough, but its not. Today I’m having a hard time. Right now my ocd is telling me to sweep the

Things I Think About

Do you ever just sit and wonder about people? Wonder what goes on in their lives? What goes on in their head? What are they thinking? Are they worried? Scared? Nervous? Or are they excited and happy? I know it may seem a little strange, but I am guilty of this. Very very guilty. I

The Casino And My Dang Ocd

Re-Post Sharing Again Back when my anxiety wasn’t as bad as it is now I use to be able to take about an hour drive before the fear would kick in.  An hour was about my limit, my anxiety wouldn’t allow me to go much further.  I have never been one to enjoy long car

What Is OCD?

Re-Post I wrote this a while back but wanted to share it again.. First off, I am not a medical professional.  What you are reading is what I have either personally researched or have personally gone through. I decided to write about this because I recently relized that not many people know what OCD is. Also, I

My Couch/ Ocd

I have really good days and really bad days. I want and need more of the better days and in order for that to happen I need to stand up to my OCD. I recently shared a story called Resisting The Urge. In that post I explained about the “problem” I have when making my

Covid, Anxiety, And Being Confused

The whole time we have been in a pandemic, I have NOT been scared of getting covid. Me, the person with bad anxiety, horrible panic attacks, and of course let’s not forget about my OCD, not afraid of a pandemic? Well, that was untill recently. I usually worry about everything. It’s really hard to believe that

Anxiety

Re-post I wrote this a few months back but wanted to share it again. I don’t understand it.  I don’t get it. I am so confused by it.   How can I physically feel the symptoms? How can I physically feel the pain? It feels real. It is real. I’m not lying. I’m not trying

ANOTHER PANIC ATTACK

Re-post I originally posted this a few months back but wanted to share it again. TRIGGER WARNING  Details of an attack  ⚠️ Last night it happened again.  Why does this keep happening and why can’t I prevent it from happening again? I was tired but relaxed, wearing my comfy pajamas and watching a kids show

My Journal/Ocd

Repost worth sharing again. I came across a journal I wrote years ago. I remember being very hesitant keeping a journal of my ocd because only my doctor and a few other people knew about it at the time. I was terrified someone would find it so I hid that book and checked on it

PANIC ATTACKS

As if having ocd wasn’t bad enough, I also get panic attacks. I know so many people have experienced it but how do they handle it? It comes on out of nowhere.  I feel it in my feet, a strange numbing feeling that creeps through my whole body causing me to shake with fear. Some